How To Know If You are Humble | Bas Ayin for Life | Parshas Toldos

I hope you're doing fantastic. I hope you had a wonderful week. I want to share with you an insight from the Helika Basai. You know, does a humble person know that they are humble? The Basain this week's Parisha, Parasha's told us, teaches us there are really two levels, two madregos, and what a humble person is. He says there's one base level of humility, Kyesh me shahu onov, there's a type of humble person, aval huba atmu magish bamida tovahu. But he feels it, he senses, he's self-aware of the fact that he's humble. Although it's a good thing, there's actually a higher, a loftier level of humility. And what is that? It's when a person is so humble that he doesn't even realize that he's humble. He actually thinks that he's still somewhat haughty and that he's got work to do. You know, Moshe Abainu wrote down the words, the Haish Moshe, Onov Ma'od, Moshe was the most humble of all men. I was thinking, you know, we're talking about the most humble man. And maybe that's really why he was able to write what he wrote. He was able to write Moshe like, of course, Hashem's not talking about me. Like, he's for sure we're talking about a different Moshe. Like, we're we're not talking about me. He was so not self-aware of the fact that he was humble. That's the Schmitz humility that I believe the Basin is describing here. Somebody who's so humble that he doesn't even realize that he's humble. You know, sometimes a person will go through a challenge, will go through a nusayun, he'll be omate on that nission, and then he'll take credit for it, right? And a person should have a sense of self-value. A person definitely should be appreciative of that fact, and he should feel good. But the Basa'ian is telling us and teaching us an ideal to get to, an ideal to attain. And we learn it from Yitzhak Vinu. Yitzhak Vinu, he what he was supposed to be shachted on the altar, right? By the Akidas Yitzhak. He was Mamish Omid bin Isaion. And it would be very easy, hechsektoy velatmo, to just take self-credit, like, oh yeah, this was me. I went through this and I overcame it, and and and and look what look what I became. But that's not what happened. The entire, the fact that he was omid bin Sayon, he completely was toled, he depended it and said, This was Hashem helping out. This was a complete gift from Hashem, Ubabur Avram Avinu Shazikal of Noshem Business Gaza, and it was through the merit of my father, Avram Vinom. It wasn't me. Says the Basai in a line of a low tola yitzhak bekayachmo. He didn't hold himself not accountable, but he didn't hold himself up high, saying, This was me, this was me, I did it. You see, it's the same concept. A truly humble person is somebody who doesn't even realize that he's humble. A person has to realize that they're really just a channel. That's what we are. We're channels, we're a clee, right? And if we want to be Machik Brach in our lives, we have to make ourselves not just an end wall where we go through something and and and now this is me, that this is what I became, and and and and Zehu. No, no, no. Everything is part of a journey, everything is part of a part of a process to tap into this level of humility of being a little bit less self-aware. You know, I heard an amazing story about a tzadik, I don't remember which tzadik, but the there was a whole delegation of of Rabbonim who went to who had to go to meet the king. Um there was some some high high-caliber politician, and they were all in the waiting room, and they were discussing who which of the tzadikim should be the first to speak up, which of the tzadikim should have the right of passage, should be the first one to speak when they meet um the king. And so this this tzadik, he was looking around and he saw a man glowing. Okay. He saw a man glowing and he said, That that that man right there. That tzadik right there. He's the one who should speak up. He's Mam Isha Ela Ula'ela. The funny part of the story was that that room was filled with mirrors, and he was looking at himself in the mirror. But he didn't know that. He never looked in the mirror before. He saw Kadusha, he saw, oh my gosh, there's a man of holiness right there. Little did he know he was talking about himself. I was thinking about that story in the context of this of this idea from the Basaiyan that a person should become a little bit less self-aware. And that's a good thing. It's an okay thing, it's a healthy thing. Because if a person realizes, I gave tadaka, I'm done, I'm humble, I'm done. You start to label yourself even as these good things, so then we become, we depend, we become dependent on those things, and that becomes our identity that I made it, I won, I I I did it, I gave the tadaka, so now I'm Yotzzi designed. My name is on the wall, so I'm Yotzi. Listen, a person can have their name on the wall that they gave money to, right? But it depends what the mindset is. If it's just so I could get honor and feel good about myself, okay, that's probably the wrong thing. But if people will see that name and then be inspired, oh my gosh, I know that guy, or that person is this and that, and and and he gave it, I'm going to give. Or if a person wants to write anonymous, whatever it is, when a person just the point is to make oneself into a little bit anonymous, even if you're putting the name on, that's not the point. The point is, who who am I? How am I identifying myself, right? Can I become a little bit less self-aware? Can I give the tzudaka and realize that it's not necessarily me that's doing it, but Hashem is giving me the opportunity to give. That really this mushulach is giving me the greatest opportunity. To be a little bit like Yitzhak Avinu, at low tala yitzhuk bikaia chatmu, not to be, not to depend all the things that we do on our own actions, on our own selves, but realize that wow, this is a yeah, Hashem gave me a gift right here. Or this was a zuchus of maybe my parents, or something beyond me, to live a little bit more beyond oneself. That's a true level of Anova. That's a true level of humility when you don't even realize that you are humble. This is a lofty level to attain, but sometimes it's important to learn about these ideas because then at least we have a trajectory, we have an approach, and we have the ability to climb, to soar, and to have this idealism to be able to strive towards. I wish you all the best, have a beautiful Shabbos, and may you be Zoche to live a life of humility. And you should be so so holy, so holy and so humble, you should be so humble that you don't even realize your humility all the best.